My New Years’ reflection: I felt compelled to right this, after all of these confusing phases and transitions I’ve gone through in this past year: 2016. I graduated high school in June with a 3-month term au pair job in Italy awaiting for me in September. I flew all the way to Italy and leaving a week later, realizing I was very homesick, culture-shocked, and was in a very confusing time in my life. I came home. Still trying to figure myself out, I applied for a retail job…I quit before my first day on the job because I was confused and miserable and deep down inside, I really did not want to work there. I think that’s when I hit bottom. But, through clearing my mind, being completely honest with myself, and my boyfriend Michael talking some sense into me, I’ve discovered that all of this non-sense bullshit I’ve been putting myself through is procrastination. I’ve always knew what I was truly passionate about, but I had that whole fear of success/fear of failure going on. So, as hard as it was, I put an end to the bullshit procrastination and started putting all of my effort towards what really matters. I’m prioritizing.
Fast forward a little bit, and I got an amazing callback for my first big TV audition. I got signed with my first talent agency last week. I started my blog and my Youtube channel, finally, and doing some work for it every single day. I’m eating healthy and doing yoga.
I personally think new years resolutions and the labeling of time in ‘years’ is bullshit, but it just so happens that the realization in my life occurred in a year called 2016 and I hope that 2017, 2018, 2019…and all of the years after that welcome more realizations, growth, and success. I’m so grateful for every good/bad* decision I’ve made this year. I’m grateful to have Michael’s support and love. I’m grateful for family. And I’m grateful for all of the memories.
Awareness and growth will welcome in the new year, respectively. Happy new years!
* there is no such thing as good or bad, as it’s just a label
I’m embracing the last days of 40 degree weather (which is considered warm in New Jersey winter) so here I am in a skirt. I’m very excited for winter though, despite summer being my favorite season. Nothing beats cuddling up with a blanket and eating gluten-free cookies while watching award shows. Winter is such a perfect time to really get creative and start new projects. I hate the negativity that’s associated with winter somehow, when it’s such a positive time and a butt-kicker to get creative and DO!
How cool are these boots, by the way? I scored them at a vintage shop not too long ago and they go with everything. I’m looking forward to wearing these with my bell bottoms mostly!
Ahh yes, ’tis the season. Here’s my outfit of the day this Christmas Eve dinner featuring some cool ass vintage wide leg pants. Something about wide leg pants makes you feel so cool, don’t they? I hope you guys had a marvelous holiday! My dinner was full of gluten-free pasta with clams, beef brasciole, and my homemade healthy vegan chocolate chip cookies that I hope to post the recipe for soon!
There is not a better, more free feeling in the world than being naked and letting your body breathe! I love it and I do it as much as I can! Amazing things happen to your body and mind when you sleep. It’s important to let your body do it’s thing, and simply taking off your pajamas and sleeping naked is the one of the most effective practices to let it!
Our bodies sleep better with a slightly lower body temperature. This is a reasoning why you’re more comfortable sleeping with AC rather than sleeping in a hot room, or why you want to stay in bed longer when it’s chilly in the morning. In contrast, when we wake up in sweat, most of the time we will want to get OUT of bed. When you do wake up in sweat, your body is too hot! This is when the cortisol and melatonin levels rise.
Cortisol is a “stress hormone”. If our levels get too high, it can wake us up, cause nightmares, increase anxiety, welcome weight gain, and even affect our growth and hormones. Our growth hormones are released during our sleep, contributing to growth and muscle development. Our melatonin hormone is what regulates our sleeping cycles and prevents aging. When your body heats up, it can prevent this hormone from working properly. So, sleeping naked is the biggest factor into lowering our body temperatures so we can balance the cortisol and melatonin levels.
For men, sperm is produced healthier with a slightly lower body temperature. For women, wearing no clothes in bed (or ever) allows your body to breathe, particularly your pussy! It can help prevent infections and stronger smells down there.
Here are some more benefits of sleeping naked:
- You don’t have to buy more pajamas!
- It can make you feel more free and happier!
- If you sleep with a partner, skin-on-skin contact releases oxytocin which can help with bonding and a better sex life!
- You don’t have to worry about buttons digging into your skin or shirts twisting when you sleep!
Can you believe these super delicious and rich “truffle cupcakes” are completely healthy, non-dairy, and gluten free?!?
As my first written recipe for this blog, I think it is safe to say that I’ll be using this realm of ingredients as I bake with most of these all of the time. All of my concoctions are always gluten-free, non-dairy, healthy, and real, but they may vary: sometimes I like baking completely vegan, sometimes I like baking raw vegan. It depends! Anyway, enjoy these rich-tasting but light chocolate truffle cupcakes and a chocolate nut-icing.
I figured that this concoction turned out to be not so cupcake-esque, but it tasted more like a truffle with the rich flavor.
Coconut flour is a dense and dry flour, which is why they seem very “light”. It makes them much crumblier, but the eggs certainly make up for it.
You could easily make these vegan by substituting the eggs for a chia seed egg (chia seeds sitting in nut milk or water for about 20 minutes), and substituting the honey for coconut sugar or maple syrup.
The icing is my favorite part of this dish, because it tastes so rich and it’s so easy!
NON-DAIRY GLUTEN FREE CHOCOLATE TRUFFLE CUPCAKES WITH A CHOCOLATE NUT ICING
Prep-time: 20 minutes / Cook-time: 20 minutes / Total time: 40 minutes
Non-dairy, gluten free delicious, healthy, real, rich, and light chocolate truffle cupcakes that can easily be turned vegan (read above for substitutions). Serves 16 truffle cupcakes.
- 2/3 cup coconut flour
- 1/2 cup cacao powder
- 1/4 teaspoon baking soda
- 1/4 teaspoon Himalayan pink salt
- about 1/2 teaspoon ground nutmeg
- 2 eggs
- 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
- 1/2 cup coconut oil
- 2/3 cup raw honey
- 2 tablespoons nut butter (I used peanut butter)
- 2 tablespoons coconut oil
- 2 tablespoons cacao powder
- 1 tablespoon maple syrup
- Preheat oven to 350 degrees F and grease 2 mini-cupcake sheets with coconut oil.
- Melt the 1/2 cup coconut oil in a saucepan on the stove if not melted already. Meanwhile, in a large mixing bowl, stir together all of the dry ingredients.
- Add the melted coconut oil, honey, vanilla, and eggs. Stir completely to get a cookie-dough-like texture. You may want to add a splash of water or nut milk if the consistency is too dry.
- Spoon out enough dough to fill into the coconut oil greased cupcake sheet (about a tablespoon) and put in the oven!
- While the cupcakes are baking in the oven, grab a small to medium-sized bowl. Melt the coconut oil in a saucepan if not melted already. Add and stir together the nut butter, cacao powder, maple syrup, and melted coconut oil. Put aside in fridge for 20 minutes.
- Take out the cupcakes after they have been in for 15 minutes, and check to make sure they are good to go with a toothpick. Set them aside to cool.
- Take out the icing after it’s been in the fridge for about 20 minutes, give it a final stir, and frost the tops of the cupcakes.
I quit my job before the first day. It’s true. I got hired at Anthropologie and then I quit 20 minutes before I was supposed to come in for my first day.
With an interest in fashion, I thought it’d be cool to start pursuing a little fashion career and start working in retail. As soon as I thought of it, I fell absolutely in love with it. During this “falling in love” phase, I become very excited and very optimistic. I became too optimistic, so I ignored all of the negatives that would later face with me. Negatives such as working long hours, the idea of working (I personally hate working, at least for other people), dealing with annoying customers, etc. I never fully considered these negatives, nor how I would feel if these negatives were to come up to me. All I could think about is the employee discount, being surrounded in pretty clothes, and working in a high-end fashion mall.
The night before, I started getting depressed at the fact that I have to work an 8 hour shift tomorrow at a new workplace at 7 in the morning. I started second guessing myself. This was when those “negatives” hit me. After I woke up and my amazing boyfriend prepared me a “first day of work” breakfast and lunch, I plugged in the mall to my GPS and was on my way. Well, it turns out that I plugged the wrong mall into my GPS and it was giving me the wrong directions. When I finally realized it, I knew I was going to be late. Between the nerves and all of those negatives, it hit me like a rock and I started stressing out. I gave up on going to work, and I parked my car at this senior living development. It was 7:10 in the morning and I was screaming and crying in my car. Not because I was late or lost (although it probably had something to do with it), but because I came to a revelation that accepting this job was a huge mistake and I thought that something was seriously wrong with me.
Something was seriously wrong with me: I was a quitter.
I only thought that thought for a second. Then, I thought “hey, this is something I can learn and grow from”. So, I did.
I realized that when I take an interest to something and I actually do it, I lose that interest immediately and completely after doing it. I’ve come to the conclusion that I fall in love too quickly. I am blinded by the inspiring and beautiful positives, and I ignore the negatives and how they would make me feel. I ignore the fact that I would face them. No matter what relationship, career, job, or hobby you pursue, there will always be negatives. It’s up to us to either make sure we really enjoy what is we want to do or make sure the positives overcome the negatives. They go pretty much hand in hand with each other. In my case, I was infatuated with the glamour of working at a pretty retail store.
Have good reasons for pursuing anything. If you don’t have good reasons, then don’t pursue it. You will make yourself miserable. If you do, then think about the negatives over and over again. Remember that the positives must truly outweigh the negatives.
Thank you, universe, for letting me grow from yet another stupid mistake I’ve made.